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15JUL email “Fell asleep in a washing machine, Woke up in a hurricane eye”

This was a catch up post for those who I hadn’t told personally of my awakening story –

I was ready to post this one day inside the closed private Facebook group that a friend had set up, but life happened… it’s fitting to share in this closed facebook group because that is where God cracked open the opportunity for me to fill in my historical lack of knowledge about the New Testament with my professor…. which led me to more professors, more faithful advisers, and most importantly right into Jesus’ Loving Arms welcoming me into God’s fold…

That day I started out feeling exuberant but at the end of the day pained immensely …. Hurricane surrounds, Jesus holds me in the eye…. There’s a Paul Simon song (of course, Hurricane Eye, Music at https://youtu.be/VyPD-N5PaeE): I truly “fell asleep in a washing machine, Woke up in a hurricane eye” Jesus pulled me into that hurricane eye – gave me peace. But he has to hold me anew each day. Each day I have to hold on tight.

The next day was more calm and I humbly shared this:

Ok folks, I know this is a very personal post in this closed group… but the reason why I’m posting it is because it’s time I decided to come clean to those I hadn’t had a chance to tell in person (I wish I had time to yap with all of YOU but time escapes me, please don’t be offended if you think I should have shared in person, it’s just God hasn’t run us together yet))…

So, I am a brand NEW Christian… As you know, I have been immensely blessed before and since then I have turned my life over 100% to God… He was taking me for his own anyway, so I decided to cooperate and not fight it any more…. He moved a mountain of my faith in front of me and told me to climb. I was 100% with God the Father, 99.44% with the Holy Spirit, but just 50:50 with Jesus). He gave me all the tools I needed. He gave me all the comfort I needed too.

God is responsible for EVERYTHING that’s happened in my life and most importantly God is the reason why I finally finally finally accepted Jesus between December to February 1st… I’ve been steady telling people individually (and been so blessed by people walking with me on my journey)…. but you know today I decided today’s the day to just let it out there little more… social media truly has been a major component in my facilitation of salvation… I know this is a closed church group so.this has been a stepping up to future public social media sharing of my salvation, I am going to share more and more openly as I get bolder and bolder… But the most important is I want people to feel comfortable discussing their faith… People (like I was) don’t discuss the very thing that needs to be hashed out, openly discussed with people… It’s not so good to “come out” as a new Christian like a clanging gong…even though it would feel great…. It’s better to come out like a whisper, and enable people to feel safe discussing faith with you… It’s non-judgement… I asked people not to judge when I opened up my faith questions… And God picked the exact people in the exact timing and walked them (or drove them) right into my path…

So I have been writing like crazy… I think its like 400 pages since December… yeah I did not choose to write this – God told me I needed to process and so there it is…. a nice thick packet… But conveniently I’ve been blogging it on a separate Facebook blog post it’s public but it is not advertised I figured God will do the advertising for me I just need that place to consolidate all this writing over 200 pieces… I’ve been so blessed by the movement of the Holy Spirit who has moved people.

It’s important to have a pseudonym NOT because I am hiding, I am certainly not, but because 1) I have small kids and want them to have their privacy. 2) I want to protect the people I wrote about, 3) the 99.44% off the attend didn’t know know me anyway.

You don’t have to read them… If someone sent me 400 pages I would probably smile and not be able to read much myself….

Again, this is NOT for my glory at all. ALL in ALL it’s for God’s glory… I was even convicted for saying it was my story… God got me good on that… Humbled me big time… It’s God’s story…. I am just God’s worker bee…. Even my name means bee in Hebrew.

Jesus has given me the biggest lift of my life and I’m so humble when I really rely on him to hold me up when I an weakest… And other times he lifts me up so much it feels like I am flying halfway to heaven.

Thank you and God bless… I would LOVE to discuss your faith with you (private chat, email, messaging, phone call)… It’s the most private and intimate part of our lives… I have been so blessed to see GOD at work in all of YOU… I have truly met Jesus, meet the Jesus within people, and HE has filled my soul.