252 Cling, Aug

I know they say Subaru love is a cult, I think it’s a way of life…. But, it’s God’s car to me, my true tabernacle that drove me directly into Jesus’s loving arms, so I love it, and I show it… The car, the moon, the stars, and this weight loss (20lbs since May, 42lbs total) – they all make me LOVE and appreciate God’s good works in me and around me even more…. So I don’t know if I am too vain, too boastful, or just too EXCITED about God… I wonder this, I also wonder if I spend too much time thinking about God… I don’t know about a lot of things… I still pray for discernment… Constantly… It’s just where I am right now…who knows where I will be in the future… NO WAY would I have believed I would be at this state nearly eight months ago!

But YES, sure, I cling to my Subaru and to Christmas and Easter and to music therapy (both regular and praise band music), and to the hundreds of people who bless me and witness Jesus to me… I cling so that I DON’T get off this “Christmas merry go round”… I cling because I really DON’T want to lose this blessed cloud nine feeling… I really don’t think I will, and HIS guiding hand wouldn’t let me so how dare I doubt HIS power!!!… Daily joy buffers this latest feeling of an avalanche of life tasks…. at work and home, financial crushes, stress of starting new counseling – opening old wounds…. But of course it’s expected that I am weary, not a surprise, this past month is always the pinnacle of summer busyness in my year… within one month I had three family birthdays to prep, VBS, scout trips, full time work at full steam and no time for vacation, and back to school on top of my normal life running a household… Christmas time is calming peace in comparison!! Oh how I could use a snowday right now) and then these new blindside devil attacks layered and interlaced within good things… Which really are like God peaking into the dark corners and urging me to cleanse even more of the crap out of my life… Like I wrote previously, the devil is the toilet paper that stuck to Jesus’s foot when he walked into my heart…. I will sink and rise again holding Jesus’s hand…

And yet thru all my “perceived” trouble (which is perceived and not any trouble for God to handle), I know it could be much much worse and I am truly blessed, and I have God throwing me miracles and messages constantly…. I praise God above my Subaru (and in it and on it, LOL I had to take this pic, fun)…

Above all I praise…

I praise God allowing me to absorb the good works that HE laid at my feet, I praise God for giving me a “vehicle” in my situation, smile, words, and now improved health…  my living example that shows witness to others about God’s good works (and his golden repair)…

I praise God to be used as HIS tool, and truly truly I praise God for letting me witness into the secrets of eternal joy…. And then letting me witness it back out to ALL….
God is MY “ALL in ALL”