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THUNDEROUS GOD… One WHOLE year awakened.. 31Jan for 01Feb

Thank you all for this wonderful one WHOLE year anniversary of BEING WHOLE!

God saw that I was lost and He sent Jesus to find me.

God saw I was a sinner and washed me clean.

God detoxified my mind from ignorance.

God worked my @$$ off, literally…

God knocked me down so that Jesus could pick me up, then HOLD me UP for all to see me become BEAUTIFUL as a CHILD of GOD.

God took my voice and replaced it with His Holy Spirit to sing His Praises.

God chose me to tell you that YOU TOO are a CHILD of GOD.

God wants YOU.

God will find you.

Look for God.

I will never ever be able to thank Jesus enough for running after me. I will never ever be able to pay Him back for my new life. I will never ever stop speak the gospel truth, or singing His Praises or reaching out for His hand to steady me. I MUST tell of HIS good works and of HIS forgiveness, and of HIS LOVE…

This year you all know the AMAZING journey God has taken me on because HE moved you to be present and as a blessing to me and my family… SO BLESSED… THANKS ALL for being a part of my awakening. Thanks for understanding my growing pains… THANKS especially for tolerating my exuberant “Child of God” ways…

One year awakened, I have been thru the most amazing reverberations of God’s thunder, of rolling thunder because God rolls me from one AMAZING event to another… I call this year THUNDEROUS…. I felt the LIGHTNING and became WHOLE with Jesus.

I encourage everyone who hasn’t committed to be there, who hasn’t given their WHOLE lives over to God by knowing JESUS as SAVIOR, to do so,… the reverberations of God’s blessings are powerful and well worth it!!!! Let go… Let God…

So Sunday Jan 31st, I wanted to write and say all this (forgive the length).. Say how Jesus MUST be holding me up because IF this were just me there is no way I could have done this, there is NO way I would still be standing…

There is a fitting scripture from Timothy for reflecting on this year of realized salvation… “that I am the worst of sinners and therefore I have been shown the most mercy…” There is also a Genesis song lyric that matches this: “God always fights on the side of the bad man” … Both these statements are true for me and for many of those of us who were SO distant from Jesus… We are the ones God worked the hardest to catch and because of His efforts, He has shown us so much mercy… We cannot claim “plausible deniability” that our salvation and our situations have been blessed by God because WE KNOW the distance we have come from and we know the blessings poured upon us are totally NOT of our own doing, they are SO amazing they could ONLY have come from God.

A dear friend is letting me borrow a wonderful book called “Accidental Saints” and in it, the very unique pastor says: “those most qualified to speak the gospel are those who truly KNOW how unqualified they are to speak the gospel. Never once did Jesus scan the room for the best example of holy living and send that person out to tell others about Him, He always sents stumblers and sinners. I find that comforting.” Yes I am one of those stumblers, yes I am one of those sinners now sent by God to teach about God.

I am STILL Blown Away by Seeking the LIGHT, I had to choose to leave my darkness and enter into living with JESUS as He lifted me… and after touching the LIGHTNING, as it was striking all around me, I had the energy of realization of Jesus strike my heart… My life fell and i felt the continued THUNDEROUS reverberations of God… blowing thru the dark spaces of my heart, purifying and shining my soul from the soil of my many sins… I rose again as Jesus lifted me… God provides Jesus’s strength to hold me up in this STILL continuous process…. I am still a sinner… In this aftermath, I see my God-polished glorious blessings… WOW WOW WOW.

So one year ago today, Feb 1st, was when I knew I was 100% in my belief of Jesus as the Son of God, and as the SAVIOR to bring us ALL back to God for eternity… One year ago I stood at the 911 Garden of Reflection in the SNOW, held the twisted steel, and picked up a coin placed as a tribute to the fallen, the coin had the scripture of John 3:16 engraved…. God so loved the world HE gave HIS one and only SON for ALL of our ETERNAL lives… and I confirmed in my soul: “YES, I REALLY DO believe this now!! I DO believe that Jesus was REAL and Jesus IS REAL and I knew Jesus really grew and lives inside my heart…” It WAS and IS an intense and amazing feeling to know and to LOVE JESUS… and to allow Jesus to shine me where HE sees fit. I am NOT afraid to be an open book because it’s easier for people to read the tale God has written on my heart…

John 3:21 “whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what they have done has been done in the sight of God.”

Feb 1st last year came after an amazing two months of intense but brilliantly orchestrated events… of God opening up my mind to accepting Jesus full force, of flooding me with Christmas and a baby beckoning me to “Come and find PEACE”, of me opening my ears AND opening my closed mind of ignorance… God writes on disciples’ hearts to tell the glory of Jesus. He has written on MY heart as He re-grafted my soul to Jesus on the vine. Feb 1st I was finally awake from Jesus reaching FOR ME and saying “she’s not dead, only sleeping…” like Jarius’ daughter… It’s been a year making me NOT hungry for food BUT hungry for the Word, and especially hungry to understand how God calls each of us, independently and uniquely, until we listen and obey. God called me and DROVE me home into Jesus’s loving arms. God knew I needed Jesus for holding me up.

Nearly two months prior to Feb 1st I felt I had to slowly share because I didn’t know what was happening to me… to that time point, I only shared with God… I had to let it out and started sharing with only trusted souls whom I begged not to judge me and help me pray for discernment, and I was steadied… for this helped me feel God’s precise clean re-grafting of me to Jesus, the vine. I didn’t know I was awakening… then I slowly I was able to share with a few trusted and faithful children of God, then a dozen… now openly hundreds… I WAS embarrassed, but NOT now… now I understand… And I understand that I (and you) CAN’T keep Jesus bottled up, you MUST openly discuss your faith. And that’s what God intends.

So, every God action since a year ago has continued to reverberate like rolling thunder… So loud!!! God continues to blow me away… A sculpture photograph I saw is fittingly called: “You Blew Me Away” – it’s a bronze sculpture by Penny Hardy of a woman tall and flowing. It’s a fitting image of me because the woman is STILL standing, and standing STILL… As in BE STILL and KNOW that GOD sent JESUS to hold you up… Jesus is holding me up and the HOLY SPIRIT blows me under God’s directive. Jesus pulled me up out of his cleansing water, He let me sink and cleanse in His LOVE and then HE raised me to new life. Jesus says face the hurricane because I AM WITH YOU ALWAYS!!

It’s that AMAZING GRACE I have been blessed to understand this year… I am still here, STILL standing, and standing STILLED by most importantly God’s GIFT of our ETERNAL LIFE… Plus this gifted strength for survival of these trials past and future… And then the 300 plus writing blogs of processing this amazing journey… And then my travels and being touched by many souls… And then the 55 plus pound weight loss, and burst of energy… and then this NEW GIFT of singing IN the same PRAISE Band that had a MAJOR part of my awakening… (I wasn’t even a singer – crazy huh??!!)!… And when I was asked to sing, I literally fell on my knees bowing to the Lord in disbelief… Only Jesus himself must be holding me up now!! Oh my strength to be able to stand is only from Jesus! And Jesus knows I feel so alive now that I have to dance in HIS LOVE…

God knows, the amplification of salvation that we collectively feel is translated into very strong and loud praise because every reverberation of the THUNDEROUS music is a tremendous way to mimic that explosive feeling of God in my head this past year. And every quiet note whispers of GOD’S love. Those loud continuous explosion feelings, well I know ALL my fellow travelers to the garden have felt them too. I wish everyone could you feel comfortable to dance it out with childlike exuberance like I do. There is a very fitting praise song: “LOVE CAME DOWN” – “Everybody’s got a story… Everybody’s got a song…” “You can say that I am a witness… I was there when His love came down…”…”His LOVE came down – Like rain from Heaven”…

And how amazing was/is the support system God set up inside this church and out… How amazing the people who made up God’s net have been to catch me… How Heavenly… How earthly… Just like Jesus’s LOVE – human and heavenly.

This whole year I have been STILLED by God to sing HIS praises… the WHOLE year God said: “You work FOR ME, I will lead you… and along the way I will bless you as well… Try letting my amazing SON Jesus lead for a change… You won’t be disappointed!!!”

Jesus took me and not only has He held me above the water, He takes some time to dance over the water with me too in delight… God says “I WILL BE WITH YOU”… And HE has, BIG TIME…

I will never ever be able to thank Jesus enough for running after me. I will never ever be able to pay Him back for my new life. I will never ever stop speak the gospel truth, or singing His Praises or reaching out for His hand to steady me.

I MUST tell of HIS good works and of HIS forgiveness, and of HIS LOVE…

I love HIM. And I need JESUS, ALWAYS…

THANK YOU GOD for ALL in ALL.

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1Timothy 1:14

The grace of our Lord was poured out on me abundantly, along with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus. 15 Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst. 16 But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his immense patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal life. 17 Now to the King eternal, immortal, invisible, the only God, be honor and glory for ever and ever. Amen.

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“LOVE CAME DOWN” LENNY LEBLANC, LINDELL COOLEY

Everybody’s got a story everybody’s got a song

Everyone’s a little different but we all went wrong

Then a Savior came and He took the blame Changed everything

Then a Savior came and He took the blame Changed everything

I could sing about His forgiveness I could praise Him till the sun goes down

I could say that I am a witness

I was there when His love came down

Love came down on me

Love came down on me

Love broke through my darkness now I can finally see

He paid the price for my freedom no more chains on me

Since the Savior came and He took the blame

Changed everything

Since the Savior came and He took the blame

Changed everything

I could sing about His forgiveness

I could praise Him till the sun goes down

I could say that’s I am a witness

I was there when His love came down

His love (His love) came down

Like rain from Heaven