pondering

Poem of Ponder and Pause, “Oh What a View”

Standard

Yesterday was a good day to walk – and it was a good day for me to let God slow me down.

I got so excited about going somewhere – had even packed my car the night before – like my zeal was ahead of myself – and that is the danger zone for being crushed when plans side step or slowdown.

Gratefully I pulled myself into right mindset and accepted the slowdown and instead redirected my flow into new places to go… I still got to work and when I buckled down into my work, I felt so much better.

And so what I am excited about and which is even coming to fruition is an opportunity for which now I have much to do – and instead of being mad that I was not on MY SCHEDULE – I was able to go instead to a coffee house to read and organize myself and my readings – took my lunch and everything as I had packed it – and just appreciated that sometimes you are WAITING for Him to open the door opening that He needs you to go in – and if you go too fast or too soon you might hit the glass door – you can see it – see the next step or place because the door is glass – but you have to WAIT until the Lord opens it – His timing not ours…

And while we wait – God is growing our faith – He is not holding us back but giving us time to view – and with this we will look back at this time and know that “we grew” spiritually and emotionally and in peace and grace…

And so part of my afternoon was walking and seeing a water creek by my house which I barely barely go see – it is right here and yet I don’t think I have walked here (5 minutes) in a year. Hmmm…

So I wrote this pondering poem there, not in pain but in pause – and in thankfulness…

“Oh What a View”

When I worked my worry waned.

Made some moves and my moodiness mellowed.

And my wits, I regained.

Stretched my legs and eased my strain.

Talked to God and God already knew, how to change my attitude from “I’m blue” to “Oh thank YOU Lord, because of You, I grew.”

I stopped my whine and I found out I was fine.

I slowed my go and caught up with my flow.

I WATCHED.

I Wondered.

I Wiggled and Wriggled.

I Whistled and Whispered.

God gazed at me and gave golden views, He remains my life glue. 

God gave me a moment to see – to get me through. 

God gobbled up the glum and made life joyfully more plum.

That’s from an unspoken conversation with God, or at least some…

And with that, I knew I grew.

Oh what a view…

Amen

Maybe I Could Join the Circus? Florida day 2 vacation

Standard

Oh… a plethora of pondering…

It’s great to be in vacation on vacation, yes in vacation mode, relaxed, fed, rested, and appreciative. Yesterday I woke so early and didn’t realize that the blood moon eclipse was what I was looking at, it was so awesome but I forgot it was happening, I think we forget often about counting our blessings. Sometimes there is even boredom in the bliss. But this blessing of time is what reactivates my mind. It’s like yesterday I got to watch clouds, oh yeah, that’s the childhood time unplugged where I could appreciate the time to just be…

And here I wax poetic about just pondering life… (and yesterday was great living it – love Florida vacation pondering in the pampering… went to a coffee house club, circus museums and mansion and oh the art galleries, then at a friend of a friend’s house on the bay… relaxing in the morning then evening by the pool in the backyard. Vacation day 2, oh what a view – to look at me and what should could I do…

.

Oh what could I be?

In life, what could I do?

Maybe I could join the CIRCUS?

Well, yeah, how about you?

.

Circus seamstress? Fix the tents? Sew sequins? Maybe swing on the TRAPEZE? Now that’s more my BREEZE.

Animal wrangler? Concession stand worker? Being in the CIRCUS is a way of life. What about a Tightrope Walker? Yes is that us WALKING everyday as we try not to stray… You could shoot me out of a cannon too, I would enjoy the view. And life does go UP and DOWN, but really, I think I’m supposed to be a CLOWN…

In life, I really could clown around, my feet already hardly ever touch the ground and yeah jam myself in the little car too, life cram it all in, I already do that, whew…

Contemplating contentment, I could also be a life teacher, a researcher, a wonderer… I could write about life too forever as a foreverer.

I do travel and sightsee and that’s when I have time to contemplate me. In travel, life pondering takes flight. 

I like a pastime like crossword puzzles when I travel, and I do visit to see people’s kids (experienced in that). My kids are grown, but now I have to wait until they have vacation to coordinate time with me in destination travels, feeling free.

At home I could cook (but nah…). I do sew and garden, and write and write. I could join even more clubs, do talks, but all this is just a hobby plan, right? Really science and helping people are my current life plan, yeah that’s “my jam”.

Well… but God makes the plan, it might be the best focus to check with “The Man.” The Man upstairs is downstairs too, so I have to see, what God has in store for me. 

And so let’s nix notions of the solo life and instead think a mix of God and me. Yes Lord, You will put me where I need to be. 

I could would should just be me. God made me to be me and I need me to be me. And I do need to dabble, in lots of fun things, in time which is free…

I love vacation and time to be me (in temperatures that are well above normal you see for me), and I like seeing life in vistas that overlook the calm sunset and sea.

One day, we could and will all see, how God took care of you and of me. That’s the best living free, knowing God’s almighty love is there ALREADY. So for now, I’ll just be. 

Just Be.

Amen

Pondering Pauses

Standard

Ah… Pause…

How precious to me are your thoughts, God!

My friend and I took photos of each other sitting on the bench, looking out at the water, pondering life… but honestly it was just the briefest of pauses, not even a minute each. Looking at the photos now gives us the time to ponder the moment and the lack of mayhem just then, but we quickly moved on as we were walking around the small lake with the scout campers.

We pondered just that moment that we got to sit, we could see the marvelous glory of God’s creations, sky, clouds, trees, water, creatures, sunshine, even mud (snow certainly had melted off there). We each ponder differently, but surely the instant we groaned in a sigh of relief was a prayer of praise that we made it there – the whole THERE – there as in: we got to camp, we got outside, we were alive, and ESPECIALLY with the acknowledgement of BEING BLESSED.

THANK YOU LORD FOR BLESSINGS AND FOR US KNOWING THAT YOU ARE THE ONE GIVING BLESSINGS. 

It was the briefest of sitting down and oh what perfect bench support for our backs, that’s what we chatted about on the bench, that support, we both needed it with bad backs and with sleeping on floor mats. We both needed it, the SUPPORT of life, better backs to live better, and God’s backing to live best.

… all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be…

That’s ponder worthy: God has our back. God loves us to hold us close.

Thank you Lord, for blessings known and unknown. May I ponder YOU all the days of my life. 

Amen

Psalm 139:13-18 NIV 

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand – when I awake, I am still with you.