Reprise Surprise, 19APR
Last night I had a SURPRISE opportunity to serve communion with a pastor friend and oh my – I can still see the smiling faces of God’s children… oh the prayerful people too…
In serving them, it was like they poured spirit back in my cup… I felt their pleas and their praise… I saw the smiles reserved for the Lord. The Lord let me see them – their gratitude for His healing. My healing from knowing His healing. My smile from knowing His smile. My prayers from knowing their prayers – and not knowing their prayers.
My Reprise Surprise is that I get to see His Spirit with my eyes.
I could write a lot, but this is the devotion that I wrote 4 years ago the first time I served communion post awakening…
On Jul 11, 2015, at 10:48 AM, deb wrote:
I broke communion bread for the first time within my church as a servant recently. Although I had received communion many times since 100% accepting Jesus, this time was different – I served it….. I was blessed to serve the blood of Jesus with a smile – I couldn’t help but smile inside and out – I was so grateful for the SURPRISE and intimate opportunity to share Jesus’s love – I was so satisfied and my heart was so warm… It’s because God is generous and allowed me to see and feel all the smiles that are truly meant for HIM.
So when we break bread in a communion community, we are actually giving up all those sins and angst in our hearts and our pain is taken by Jesus in that briefest a moment – the only thing left in our hearts is a smile as well as a humble cry for Jesus’ pain… here is my devotion… God bless… Smiles…
Jesus was Broken for You, 11JULY
Jesus was gifted from God to absorb our pain, absorb our sins, and to show us the way to salvation.
When we break and eat bread in communion – we say “Jesus’ body broken for you” – we are thinking of Jesus breaking bread at the Last Supper – we, like apostles, are called to remember Him. Jesus’ body broken for you – for me – yes – BROKEN – Jesus was broken, beaten, stabbed, tortured, whipped, dragged thru the streets, nailed and put on public display – body broken, spirit strong. Thorns in a crown, jeers, and a mocking sign “King of the Jews” – break his spirit they said – break him mentally for hours, days whatever it takes – that was more the goal than a quick painless death… Break His Spirit…
God’s true SPIRIT cannot be broken and He released Jesus’ spirit for us to catch.
Our sins are also breaking us. They weigh us down, then deaden us to the world’s needs and make us internalize our mercy towards ourselves instead of out to the masses.
Jesus says no matter what, the breaking we do to Him in body is just that, in body, we can NOT break His Spirit. We can not hide His love for us – we may try to shield ourselves from His salvation – we may deaden our pain with ignoring our sins – placating, medicating, soothing our pain away by turning to any means possible – except Jesus. Soldiers may have tried to drug Jesus with wine and gall to deaden the pain (perhaps even mercifully) but Jesus said “NO” – Jesus said ‘NO, I want ALL in ALL suffering – I want to feel ALL your pain and all your brokenness – I want you to remember ME by breaking ME and thrusting your pain onto ME – I have a cross and I will bear it – it is sufficient for you – I, Jesus, am sufficient for you – God’s Grace is sufficient.’
Go and Sin no more… some sins are the fatal stab wound in the side, some are the tiny pricks of the thorns – Jesus is ever-willing to take it all – break HIM and heal yourself – break him open and drink in His blood that was shed and you will find the narrow path to salvation as he inter-collates into your very being and becomes your sustaining spirit.
We instead ought to be showing our mercy out to the body of Jesus – the body of Jesus is the church – ALL people are the church. If we are chosen and accept Jesus’ body into our own, He wants us out with the people bringing them into His Father’s salvation, externalizing our mercy towards the sinners in the masses. Our forgiven sins a road map to spirit-filled salvation for others, for the church, when we release our spirit for them.
When you take and break bread of Jesus you may smile – smile inside your heart. Jesus took your sins. Feel free to let your heart smile. God’s spirit will be there.
When you take and break bread of Jesus you may cry – cry inside your heart. Jesus took your sins. Feel free to let your heart cry. God’s spirit will still be there.
When you climb up on your cross that you have carried all those years, when you enter heaven with smiles and cries you will be free. Jesus – freed.
I’m a free spirit
Jesus is free
Jesus is for me