There Were FLAGS, Lord !!! 18NOV
Oh Lord, there’s nothing not in Your purview to catch the attention of Your children and to raise our spirits…
The waves of children’s flags, Lord!!! My eyes widened, WOW!!!
Your Holy Spirit knowingly brought JOY and childlike wonder to the surface when our pastor introduced small colorful banner flags to the children at the beginning of the praise and worship service. I raised my hand for one too, my VBS-soul was screaming inside for one, but no one saw me way up in the band section. Next time maybe I will bring my own banner flag. Well, maybe not, I am perfectly content, I have a microphone cord that I love to wiggle like the children wave their flags. Flags or no flags Lord, I am in Your JOY service forever, Lord. YOU ARE THE WIND INSIDE MY SAILS.
And You Lord are the Anchor in the waves. Yes, You Lord are my song.
Those partially are the lyrics of the beautiful song intro: “LET the King of my heart….”
I was ready to sing – I practiced and I had a solo lead. I was SO nervous. If only I could put all these people inside my Subaru instead, then they would hear my full voice praising the Lord with no nervousness. No, and even though I have belted out that song in JOY and even woken up singing the lyrics in my dream prayers, at that moment I had serious NERVES.
I can sing openly with no nerves when in accompaniment, especially for songs that I know – I sing joyfully in nursing homes and solo at the Wawa and grocery stores along with the piped in music – especially for for Christmas music. I sing with VBS-hands each summer and stifle them in praise sets as i don’t have much room – I sing the best and sometimes silly sweet camp songs with my retreat group around a guitar – but in this band – with this NEW song to me, I was to be solo and this was my major stumbling block. GOD PUSHES US OUT OF OUR COMFORT ZONES.
Then there were flags, Lord. Children with flags!!!
The Lord clearly herded me like a cat into singing praise music. Five years ago this month, He employed my Subaru sound studio as He awakened me. Gave me a Christmas Flood of His Living Water then stirred me all year. The Lord stirs us out of His mud (dust plus living water). Then 4 years ago I was in my first praise band experience because I was made bold in the moment to ask for a song – then His plan took over, OVER my disbelief in singing.
But a solo lead? Scary. Yet that seemed to be the next thing on the Lord’s checklist for me. Especially since he dropped vocal coaches into my life too thru the Holy Spirit. No doubt, the Lord has me EXACTLY in His Score. I am pinned to His list, on His sticky note, brought to this point to be a praise flag myself. If I won’t do my job for Him, He will find someone else who will.
So, I went through my own nervousness check list: held the microphone close, my hand in the form of a cup to both deposit my nerves into and accept any refill of my empty cup from Jesus, then listening for the accompaniment of my band leader’s guitar. He wonderfully turned to me to help me start. Whew.
I sang for Him. I started and I didn’t stop.
BUT, I had no idea my microphone was not working. I sang for Him but didn’t know I had failed to fully use my skills for His people too. I then had no idea my band-mates were trying to hand over their own microphones, because my eyes were closed in praise and nervous focus. I had no idea no sound was coming out until someone pushed the button on the sound board to make my microphone live, and then I realized, this opened my eyes exactly at the “fire inside my veins” lyric. Oh! OOPS!!!! OK, Verse 2 now, and I just sang it for the Lord. Whew… I could then relax into the rest of my praise. But my mistake was classic me. How we trip over our human selves…
My pre-singing checklist will now have to be longer – turns out that I had grabbed the other identical microphone sitting there, which was muted because the other singer was out. Oh. Nothing can stop my human mistakes from being so very human. I am the only human in charge of my humanness, I need a better checklist.
God has His Own Checklist – God uses His Own unfathomable checklist – down to knowledge of every hair on our head. God’s love knows no bounds, AND He’s got this giant elaborate checklist to personally bring us to faith, to finish His Plan. He will bring us into the fold, then bring us even further, into His flag-waiving crew and into His praise team. It’s not a linear list that God uses, it’s a mesh of orchestration.
And this praise and worship service? Wow – it was overwhelming to watch the Holy Spirit move thru the church – the hands raised – the joy overflowed – the tears and the dancing… and the children’s flags… I was dancing – I am always dancing inside but today I was free to dance how I praised… I was appreciative to witness everyone’s appreciation of their own spirit’s revival, because they know that Jesus showed them the Way.
Our orchestrating score? HIS.
We are made HIS – to be HEALED – to help others HEAR.
I am just me, yet Jesus chose to call me. Jesus calls you too. Jesus says to each of us as disciples: “You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last”
We are made to realize that we are HIS.
Grab your Banner for Him. Wave it for JOY. You were born into life and thru His lifeblood you can sing forever. Forever God is Faithful.
You were made from His dust – Make the most out of every speck.
“This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples. As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love. I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. This is my command: Love each other.” John 15