Boo to the frustration !!!

I know Jesus suffered all our emotions too – and one that I suffered from yesterday was frustration along with anger and impatience and being rushed. Jesus, You understand, I know You do.

So, my frustration came from both the hit of a piece of plastic edging from a truck, likely, and my frustration came from the impaled piece of plastic into my headlight – yeah!!!  Frustration and anger came from 1) hey! it hit my car – my beautiful blue car (I am not usually vain, but I love my Subarus!) and 2) I hardly ever run on those roads anymore but that route is a nemesis to so many, and 3) ugh – the expense and insurance claim (again) – but maybe not – we will see this morning when I take it in for my inspection…  and 4) me NOT seeing the blessing in it – because I am always looking for the blessing – and yet know that we don’t always see the blessing – even if it is divinely just pulling closer to the Lord – in either concern or care or “Can’t believe this!” ugh…

Yeah – but yeah – all that truth of “it could have been worse” – “glad it wasn’t your windshield” – ” glad you are safe” – yeah yeah yeah – in the moment that IS the blessing that people care and the blessing for people to reset your emotions and your focus – we want to stay angry (I still am but less this morning than last night)- and I do appreciated the best wishes, but geez – the impaling of plastic rubber into my headlight (and the small piece that flew over my hood, hit my windshield) – well, it was just plain annoying…  Geez, I STILL asked the Lord:where is the blessing in this?

Well one blessing was this lady who saw me paused in the parking lot and with that worried look on her face said: “do you know you have something sticking out of your headlight?” (5 minutes had passed and I didn’t know – did not see it. And we co-commiserated – I am glad that the Lord puts those kind people in our path. And I recounted my story to her, saying I thought only one piece had hit and flew over me. Well, no… but it is a blessing of processing we have. (and trust me I am thankful for the safe landing of this piece in my light and not my windshield)…

And then I thought of another blessing last night (also from a justifying processing – not that I was bad but there must be a reason somewhere) – and I was remembering another subaru thing a few years back – maybe this blessing was BOTH the above of not being hurt – AND the blessing is that this plastic impaled into MY car and – and NOT into someone elses – yeah – yeah yeah – that is how I will frame my thinking – my subaru clean up crew gave it true – it took the plastic away from the roadway… Maybe the blessing(s) are for SOMEONE ELSE…  yeah….  yeah – and thus I remembered my red car and someone side-swiped it while I was stopped and they missed everyone else and hit me without injuring me and I thought at that time – maybe it was me taking the impact to protect others…  maybe this impaled piece is that too… blessings for others – subaru sweep up team…

And that is a suffering that Jesus understands – taking the hit for someone else – actually for EVERYONE…  Taking the hit and consequences and paying the deductible too – insuring it would all work out by His plan from before time – Jesus is the Alpha and Omega – there from before we were – and with us now – and with us forever…

Thanks Jesus for understanding our being suffering (even if ours is trivial like this is for me) – Thank You Jesus for understanding anger and frustration and feeling rushed (I felt rushed and not able to look up the road situation or call the highway department – as I was on my way to a science event which was worth it – and much better seeing friends and new friends than worrying about the light – just parked the car and walked away for a bit (and yeah I put the impaled piece in my back)). And THANK YOU Jesus for your grace and mercy of any of my sins of speech from those feelings of anger and all that – and thank You Lord for forgiving us for ever – thank You Jesus for everything…

“For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.” – Romans 8:18

OK – onto today and remember to deal with the feelings and not let them fester – and remember to think about the others – and thank you for letting me ramble this morning – life is full of flying fluff and hard stuff.. Just keep rolling…

(and yes I already have an appointment at early at my favorite Subaru place for an inspection… God pre-prepares our path)…

Amen to Jesus – and not to my rambling…