Convictions on Pride, Vanity, Temptations, 10JUN – #184

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I meant to finish this since it spit out of my head last week… it’s half done – time to send it out “as is” – I need to move on with my life – it’s one of the series of convicting myself on the “seven deadly sins” so here it goes – I maybe will revisit someday to fix it up… because another of my sins is rushing – and also thinking that if I finish something (even if half done) that I can move forward and put it behind me and open up my brain to something new to work on – so apparently I am not rushing on fixing my sin of rushing, LOL

Convictions on Pride, Vanity, Temptations, 10JUN
There are two aspects of pride/vanity that I am reminded to be convicted on… Weight and God.

I am so excited and blessed to have lost nearly 30 pounds over the course of 6 months… This time frame is in parallel to the time frame in which I’ve had my most amazing spiritual awakening. God had been working on correcting my lifestyle, not just a few aspects, but ALL aspects, simultaneously. When they say you don’t need a diet, you need a lifestyle change, it’s true and it works… Instead of hungering for food, I have been hungering for God’s word. Instead of going against HIS will, I have been going with it. Go with the flow, when you are in the know…. Know God.

Yes, nearly thirty pounds down, it surprises me still, and I am still losing, I am trying not to be vain/prideful but people mention how much better I look, and I couldn’t help but scope out my new hourglass shape on the window reflections, yeah sweet… but most important are my blood numbers – it’s what’s inside your heart is the most important! So proud of myself? Well, so surprised at myself, never tried to change my eating before – exercise yes, but really so surprised at the power of focusing on God instead of stress eating! It truly works… God is right sizing me.

I try to make the most of my food choices, and guess what? every bit of food bursts with flavor! Those smaller protein-rich meatier courses will satisfy your appetite… calm you down and not make you crave JUNK…

And on the flip side – but certainly related, every bit of SCRIPTURE bursts with flavorful meaning…. Seriously, I sometimes wonder if I am or have been overdosing on God with this voracious appetite… That sounds silly and yet I wonder if I should slow down or take smaller doses to mull them over, really slowly ponder, discuss and act upon for all the extracted flavorful goodness that can be applied to life…. Those smaller praise-rich meatier pieces will satisfy your soul. “Be still and know that I am God” in extracting the meaning and applying it to your own life with intent and not rushing will calm you down and not make you crave (or worry) about JUNK..

Vanity…. Yes for both losing weight and for gaining God…. Vanity is the Temptation that I need/needed a touch of conviction on… because temptation does not come from God… so I ask forgiveness for those times I fill with vanity…

Yeah – as healthy it is to lose the weight – and healthy to feel better about your look – it is also where you need to catch yourself before you are tempted into looking at yourself in vain ways… you need to catch yourself before you FORGET to praise God for HIS efforts in how far you have come – instead of starting to be self-critical in that you aren’t perfect yet – or instead of becoming overconfident (overconfidence is truly a temptation to be reckless in many aspects of life)… You don’t want to begin rushing it and overdo it in an unhealthy way… What’s important is to find a new healthy balance – one that you can sustain…

Yeah – as healthy and spiritually sound it is to gain God in a big way – and Joyous beyond belief – it is also where you need to catch yourself when you are not humbled by it….catch yourself before you are rushing it and you are tempted to feel like you have a righteous license of entitlement… Being a Christian is NOT to be flashy for your sake but for God’s sake…. God might use you as a flashlight to shine into someone else’s darkness if you are lucky and blessed (and you are) – so pray for God to use you and your skills to HIS glory not yours…. What’s important is to find a new healthy balance – one that you can sustain…

“Stir up a hunger in my heart” is not just a great song lyric but it truly is a reflection of how we want to maintain the hunger for God at a very high intensity… that intensity is sometimes scary – sometimes makes me wonder if I will burn out – but again – finding the new balance is the key…

This past week, I again was experimenting with fasting… Good Friday easy, the next time easy again, and this time? easy too… I don’t understand why… it’s the strangest thing… I don’t want to vainly point that out but I just want to acknowledge and Thank God that I have not felt sugar swings or felt light headed from not eating. In my previous life I would feel ANGRY from not eating – nope not anymore… instead of “shaken not stirred” my hunger is stirred – my life settling into a new balance…

This is God’s correction on my whole mind, body and soul… a correction facilitated and supported by God HE continually feeds me with HIS good word HIS great love and HIS comforting presence… I don’t need to do anything but eat up the God parts, listen and put it to good use… and skip the JUNK

(and stop rushing it…)

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James 1:
12 Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.

13 When tempted, no one should say, “God is tempting me.” For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; 14 but each person is tempted when they are dragged away by their own evil desire and enticed. 15 Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.

16 Don’t be deceived, my dear brothers and sisters. 17 Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. 18 He chose to give us birth through the word of truth, that we might be a kind of firstfruits of all he created.

Listening and Doing
19 My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, 20 because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires. 21 Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you, which can save you.

22 Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. 23 Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like someone who looks at his face in a mirror 24 and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. 25 But whoever looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues in it—not forgetting what they have heard, but doing it—they will be blessed in what they do.

26 Those who consider themselves religious and yet do not keep a tight rein on their tongues deceive themselves, and their religion is worthless. 27 Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.’

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Well I WAS going to include a part about pride and overconfidence in driving in this essay, but didn’t get to add it…. But now I will…. Instead of almost driving in front of that road rage guy in the rain, today I must have had some angels, saints and God himself make the actual “save” when I changed lanes on the road right in front of a car in my blind spot…ugh…. Yes, again the car was apparently riding in my blind spot for quite a while, but this time it was sunny, a red car, and 75mph…. Whew, thanks God for saving the stupidest move I have made in a while…. It’s that blind spot that I can’t be over confident about…. This time no accident, I don’t know how, whew… And the red car lady (her license plate said something with”mom”) shrugged it off as she subsequently safely changed lanes out of my way…. and I so humble myself praying for forgiveness from God… Ugh, I’ve got to move away from that blind spot…. It’s going to get me one of these days… It’s also the blind spots of life that I/we have to look more carefully at, that’s where we least expect the trouble from…. But that’s EXACTLY where the trouble is…

The ONLY ONE I can credit for saving me (and the red car mom) today is God… Was none of my doing…

The ONLY ONE I can credit for saving me eternally is God…so many I do praise for their roles, but “All glory and honor are HIS” as the song says… Was God’s doing, not theirs and certainly not my doing…

Thanks GOD! Thanks for my physical life and for my eternal life!

Joy with humility and thanks…

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